Friday, June 13, 2014

Shores of Null - Quiescence (Album Review)

I haven't tried to review anything in years, but this rather unknown doom band I came across recently compelled me to write one. Looking back at my Amazon reviews from 2005, I think I've improved quite a bit! I've included some videos and links at the bottom so you can preview their material or possibly support them by buying the album.

My overall score: 9 out of 10

Shores of Null is a band from Rome that combines a diverse set of influences and styles, including doom, death, and black metal. Sounds reminiscent of November’s Doom, Woods of Ypres, ICS Vortex’s solo debut “Stormbringer,” and American band Nevermore, in addition to classic black metal influences cleverly mixed in, can be heard throughout the ten track endeavor. The result is not something eclectic, but rather a coherent, unified sound that penetrates the album from start to finish despite great variety within and between tracks.

The sound of Shores of Null consists primarily of vertically large repeated chords in the guitar and bass that are shaped into melodic phrases and punctuated by memorable riffs. Throughout, dissonance is highly controlled, giving the listener a need for release that is never quite matriculated. Beneath the churning soundscape of the strings, creative drum work serves as its own point of interest while driving the tempo of the songs, which varies from black metal fast to sludgy slow. On top of these harsher elements sits the highly melodic voice, which is at times frantic and at times soothing, creating a tonal contrast that compels the listener to further explore the darkness the band presents in varying shades of grey. Growls used on several tracks heighten this contrast between harsh and beautiful.

The production on the album is fairly maximized and typical of a modern sound, however in the case of Shores of Null the production serves the music and doesn’t detract from it. All the instruments are clearly audible, including the bass which is often buried in metal recordings, and the tone employed on the rhythm guitars, bass, and vocals was excellent. The drums sound slightly compressed, but this is typical of metal and doesn’t distract too much. The voice is clear and sits at the right level in the mix, and nothing sounds over-processed.

As a criticism, while there is a great amount of tempo, texture, and tonal variety within and between the pieces on the album, the experience was overall lacking in dynamic variation, sounding consistently “loud.” Also somewhat distracting was the sound of the lead or melodic guitars, which sounded dead and shapeless. This is partly a performance issue, as the parts were played with little vibrato and failed to sustain or “sing.” It stands out mostly because of the great phrasing and tone employed by the vocals near or concurrent to the sections of single note lead guitar. The shortcomings of the album should not be viewed as negatives by themselves, but rather represent lost opportunities to make an already great album perfect.

If you are a fan of any of the bands mentioned, or enjoy doom metal in general, Shores of Null will likely please and earn a place in the rotation among the classics.

http://shoresofnull.com/



Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Nostalgia Chronicles, part 3: Moving?

Another year, another room
Where you hang a few things on the walls
It’s just where you call home for now,
Until it’s time to take them down and move on.

-David Gold, from “To long life in the Limbo Union” Woods 4: The Green Album

The act of moving, and by that I mean changing your home from one location to another, is usually not looked back upon fondly. This is for good reason, as moving can involve hours of physical labor, tedious organizing, and frantic cleaning in an attempt to recover one’s security deposit. Having moved some five times in the last three years or so, I can say that I am thoroughly through with the experience. I’m ready to have a home and I hope this time I get to stick around it in it for a good long while.
However nostalgia, as I’ve made a point to clarify in the past, is not always a memory of something positive, it is just a powerful memory. The moving experience is always memorable for me. You take your things off the walls. You pack your knick knacks into boxes. Soon the clothes and the pots and the pans go, then your furniture and your toothbrush. You are left with empty rooms, no longer your home at all. For me it is a powerful experience. You enter limbo, where you get to contemplate all the places that were once home.
At the same time, there are numerous positive nostalgic feelings that I get when I move. I remember the past places I lived. I remember the joy I had there, and the promises that location made when I moved in. I also remember how I felt when I moved out. Here are a few of those places. I get take back there a lot.
Frank Court, Bakersfield, California
My parents rented a house in Bakersfield when I was young while my mother stayed home with myself and my sister. When I was five, they bought a house, and so the first real memory I have of a house being mine was on Frank Court. I remember the house being empty, and shouting to it, “goodbye!” as I walked out the door for the last time. I remember seeing the row of four bushy trees for the last time, as well as a thicket at the end of the street that I used to play in with my friends that lived down the street. I fell asleep at some point in the move and woke up in my new room.
North Park Apartments, Fresno California
My first apartment was across the street from Fresno State, where I was a graduate student at the time. They were really crappy, but I had a great time initially being independent. I moved in sort of one item at a time, and slowly the apartment became more like home. I’m nostalgic of lots of experiences from that little cave of a place, a few of which I address in my Berserk entry.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Blood Drinker: Chapter 6-1

Here is chapter 6, where we find Yoshio and Amaya moving toward Osaka. As always, previous installments are linked before the beginning of the text proper.

Chapter 6



The sun beat down on the still-damp fields to either side of the raised road that split them. Peasants busied themselves with the harvest of the first round of rice, their bare feet collecting mud so that they looked like swallow nests below their calves as they stepped up and down. Their hats, large and conical much like the basket hat that Yoshio wore as he walked, bobbed up and down as they picked new stalks and threshed them. Amaya walked beside him, letting the horse follow by his lead a short distance behind them. A grove of trees interrupted their steady march as much by the sound of cicadas that nestled in them as the relief of shade they offered.
Amaya pulled the horse over to a shallow but clear pool in a rocky basin beside the grove, a left-over from the draining of the rice fields, and let the beast drink. He obliged contentedly, though the tense swishing of his tail at the pestering insects continued. Yoshio knelt down and dipped his hands into the water, then splashed his face.
“You’ve been quiet today, Yoshi,” Amaya said.
Yoshio turned to see Amaya sitting on a low-hanging branch of  a maple. Her head was slightly tilted. “I apologize,” he said. “I’ve had a great deal to think about.”
“Like what?”
“Osaka.”
“It’s a city, Yoshi. You’ve been in those before, haven’t you?”
“Yes, but it makes it so much harder to predict him. I missed what might be my only chance to catch Ryunosuke because of short-sightedness. More may be killed.”
Amaya nodded. “So you have given me the first answer.”
Yoshio sighed and stood up, letting the cool water drip off of his face. “Some of the things you said to me last night. They were not like you.”
“That is where you are wrong,” Amaya said. “They are precisely like me.”
“Then you have many sides, Amaya,” Yoshio said.
“And you will know them all, my dear…” she smiled sweetly and looked away for a moment. “Friend.”
“I’m not sure if I liked it,” Yoshio said. “In fact, it disturbed me.”
“Thank you for your honesty. I would not usually show that side off, but if you wish to know someone, you must offer up a piece of yourself in exchange.”
“Know who?” Yoshio said.
“You, silly.” Amaya hopped off the tree limp and walked to the horse. “People get to know each other by self-revelation. First you reveal something about yourself, then your companion feels obligated to offer up the same. You told me a great deal about yourself last night.”

Monday, June 9, 2014

"I'll Never be Good Enough" and Other Lies you Tell Yourself

I’ve done many different things in my life. I’ve played concerts, written books, recorded albums, and written sonatas and symphonies, along with plenty of other things people mind find more than a wee bit daunting. Sometimes, people disparage themselves and say that such things are impossible for them; that they lack the skill, talent, time, or intelligence to do what they really wish they could do.
I am here to tell you that such impossibilities exist only in your mind. You can write a book if you choose. You can play a concert, solo or otherwise, if you choose. You can record an album, or paint a great picture, or make a movie, or put on a play, or do any of the big creative projects you dream about.
The only difference between you and the person who does these things is time. Time spent with your craft, developing talents and skills. Time spent getting experience on stage or on the page. Time spent staring at the word processor or the finale document. The mountain seems insurmountable only because you stand at the bottom, but those who stand at the pinnacle got there the same way you will: one step at a time.
Hard work, dedication, and time is all it takes to accomplish your goals in life. If you want to write a book, write every day. Write something. Write. Sooner than you realize, you will have a manuscript. If you want to build an incredible body, lift weights. Every day. Sooner than you realize, you will be strong. It is the same process with this as with everything else.
Often people lose sight of the simple truth of progressing a step at a time to achieve goals. We live in an on-demand world with boring, repetitive jobs that train people to not only ignore the march of progress with themselves, but declare that it doesn’t even exist. It does exist. Make it real, one note, one page, one word at a time. More than that:

Don’t Give Yourself an Excuse to Not Try

Telling yourself that you “Just don’t have what it takes,” also gives you one of the most convenient excuses to avoid failure: avoiding the effort. If you predetermine that you will fail, it is easy to avoid doing the work and taking the risk that is necessary to achieve your dreams. It is a cruel psychological trick we play on ourselves to deprive ourselves of happiness, even if we don’t realize it.
Work hard. Work every day. Achieve your dreams. You can  do it. What are you willing to do to complete your work?

The video below has the same message in a more casual style, for those who care for it.


Monday, May 19, 2014

The Grand Magicians and False Prophets

There is no magic; There are only illusions.
There are no wizards; There are only magicians.

The crowd waits for the reveal with bated breath. The curtain drops, and what was, is no longer. The magician bows and accepts the prestige of the illusion. They love the show, and the lights, and the costumes. The crowd love watching the impossible become real. Not because they really believe it, but because they know, ultimately, that it is all a lie.

That’s the fun of it. We know that what our eyes see and our hears hear is not what is true. Penn didn’t really shoot Teller. The real magic is in being fooled, and in admitting that the magician has crafted a puzzle too perfect for us to solve. The audience claps not because they have been made to believe, but because they are impressed.

Sometimes there are people who believe – people who truly think Teller caught the bullet in his teeth. We tend to think of such individuals as strange, foolish… even childlike, because we understand it is all a lie.

There is no more prophesy; there are only false promises.
There are no more prophets; there are only liars.

The stage has been yielded to a magician of another sort. His coy words speak to old roads of the audience’s mind, so well-tread by ancient teachers, and so he is anointed. He plays the part of Christ himself, promising the feed the five thousand.

Five loaves and two fish are all the faith that is required, and so they are given up. Before the crowd, the man who would be Christ eats the loaves, then the fish, and throws the crumbs to his assistants.

“The five thousand are fed!”

The crowd cheers.

He does it again. Then again. Soon, there are less fish and less loaves to offer up, so what is left must be taken.

Still, the crowd cheers at the miracle; the magic. The want to believe. They want to believe.

“I believe! Yes! I believe!”

There are no messiahs among men; there is only the discipline of fire and demise.
There are no creators among men; there are only illuminators.

One man does not join the crowd and cheer for the false Christ, the democratic false savior of misplaced faith. He stands apart, cast in the darkness for which he pitied man.

Feared and reviled, hated and maligned, the fire thief stands alone. 

Prometheus weeps.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Why We All Have High Hopes for Net Neutrality

1: Radio emerges. Some stations broadcast on the same wavelength.

2: Create the FCC to keep the airwaves "clean."

3: FCC creates broadcast monopolies within each local market, hurting consumers and benefiting established broadcasters.

4: FCC institutes sweeping censorship laws retarding the growth of art and prevents wholesale any political discourse.

5: Television emerges to challenge radio.

6: FCC licenses, monopolizes, and censors television. For decades, only three major networks exist.

7: Cable companies emerge to challenge existing broadcast monopolies, offering a much wider variety of programing direct to consumers.

8: The government grants cable companies a total monopoly in each local market, hurting consumers and benefiting established cable providers.

9: The internet emerges, challenging existing media monopolies and offering an untold amount of variety and information

10: Some ISPs (many of which are cable companies) throttle high-bandwidth traffic and content that competes with their own.

11: Defying convention and 100 years of history, the FCC steps in and creates net neutrality rules, saving the day and making the internet a better place for everyone, with no added expense or consequence. Netflix streams flawlessly.

Everybody likes surprises. Too bad we never get any.


Prometheus weeps.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Nostalgia Chronicles Part 2: Super Mex Cantina

Continuing my series on nostalgia, which for me is a feeling akin to a flashback, only packed with emotion and often consisting of highly condensed time, I thought I might speak about a place that was near and dear to my heart, rather than a piece of intellectual property. That place is Super Mex, a Mexican restaurant and bar at Sunset and Pecos in the city of Las Vegas. I say that the place “is” Super Mex because, even though it has been re-worked by the owner and is no longer known by that name, the memory and reality of it as Super Mex is still clear in my mind, as if I had eaten there last night.
Las Vegas, Land of Late Night Tacos
One of the best things (or worst things, depending on your perspective) about living in Las Vegas (or visiting, for that matter) is the fact that you can get anything your heart desires, at virtually any time of day or night. This includes food, booze, gambling, karaoke, ice cream, donuts, groceries of virtually any variety, drugs, prostitutes, guns, and ammunition. You can also go to the gym, doctor, or even tanning salon at 3 AM. This doesn’t mean one has to indulge in all these things while in Vegas, just that one can at any time. This produces what I like to call “Vegas Time,” which is the inevitable turning of one’s schedule so that waking occurs at 2 PM and sleeping begins at sunrise. My main indulgence was tacos and diet coke, with the occasional order of pancakes and a glass of tequila thrown in for good measure, and my preferred time to indulge was between 1 and 3 AM.
When I was first considering moving to Las Vegas, I would visit a few of my friends, and at night we would go looking for new places to eat. If that seems like a boring thing to do in Vegas, well… I find slot machines and strip clubs boring, and only one of those is a lie. New food is like a small adventure, full of excitement, risk, and great reward. That is a good attitude to have, and one that in no way explains the fact that once my friends and I found Super Mex we went there three times a week for two and a half years. It also doesn’t explain why we always ordered the same thing (except for pancakes, as I said – those were the best in Vegas), which was delightful concoction they called “Tacos Tijuana.”
Tacos Tijuana: Slayer of Gains
The first time I ate at Super Mex with Matt (my roommate at the time and still one of my best friends), it was a fairly traditional dining experience, and we ate at a fairly traditional hour. I had a torta. It was decent. The second time was like the first, but only because Super Mex was the only decent Mexican food place in south-east Vegas that I felt like wasn’t going to give me salmonella or e-coli. I had milanesa (basically Mexican chicken-fried steak). It was surprisingly good.
The next time we went in, it was well after midnight. Technically, the dining room is open 24 hours, but it was deserted in there and felt odd- kind of like going into a restaurant after the apocalypse, so we ate at the bar. A bartender named Julie (a short, lithe brunette, and surprisingly attractive despite a scar on her upper lip) working the deserted second half of the restaurant suggested the now infamous tacos. She had a smoking habit and always seemed to be lighting up next to the “no smoking” signs, but she didn’t charge us for diet coke and the tacos were pretty smashing good.
What are Tacos Tijuana? There a set of three, massive soft corn tacos loaded with carne asada, chorizo (the greasiest available, by God), pico do gallo, topped with “queso fresco” (basically cottage cheese without the general grossness of such), and served with guacamole. Healthy, no, but more satisfying meal I cannot imagine. They became a habit over the next two years, and as Matt and I took up a serious weightlifting routine they became a frequent after-work out meal, usually eaten well after midnight. They were probably not the best choice to follow an hour of lifting, but squats have a way of driving hunger into a man, and they were but seven dollars. Combine that with the free diet coke and it’s a hard bargain even for a pauper to pass up.
Kelly- Your Friendly Neighborhood Sports Gambler
After a while, Matt and I made friends with one of the graveyard bartenders named Kelly, a stout Irish with a mouth like a sailor and an always running line of massive sports bets. I knew he’d end up being a friend when I forgot my debit card at the bar one night. I didn’t realize until the next day, but I was able to get it back the next night – and order tacos with it. For any interested parties, one sure way to earn my trust is to not steal the last fifty dollars from my bank account if I leave my card with you.
Kelly was the man when it came to sports. He would tell you who sucked, why, and by how much, because chances are he’d made money on his opinions. Either that or he had lost a ton of money, and that makes certain opinions as well. A fan-boy he was not, unless it was money you were talking about; he never cared to bet for teams he liked, a lesson more people should learn. I always wondered why he kept the bar job. Maybe he needed a w-2 for tax liability. Maybe he lost more than he care to admit.
Kelly had an affinity for bourbon, a favored drink I had the pleasure of sharing more a few times with him, and he was always generous with the tequilas I would drink at the bar, and of course the diet coke (the restaurant actually served Pepsi, but it’s all diet coke to me). The amount of diet soda he served me would probably feed a family of four for a year, except not at all because it is zero calories and I wanted to make an analogy that didn’t involve swimming pools.
Besides bourbon, the only thing I remember him drinking was tea, but not the restaurant’s tea. Instead, he drank instant tea that he brought into bar. I don’t remember why exactly; maybe it was the caffeine.
The Demise of Super Mex
I found out awhile back that the restaurant I had known as Super Mex had departed, in a sense. The Super Mex franchise had been discarded, and the place had been re-worked as something else. I know that sort of thing happens with restaurants, but it doesn’t work that way in my mind or memory. To me, even though I’ve been gone awhile, Super Mex is still there, like I just had an order of tacos and drank three gallons of diet coke, and I am rushing home with Matt to use the bathroom and try to get into bed before sun was up.
I could see myself driving up to the parking lot, filled with police taking their meal break at 3 AM, tired from a work-out at Gold’s Gym on Flamingo (the best gym in the world, now also gone away). We walk inside to hear jukebox playing 90s music of its own accord, and pull up the bar between poker machines, since we never gambled. There’s a weird boar’s head on the wall behind us, which I never found out the story to, and the tacos are on the counter before we even order them. They taste great, but they always come out a bit small when you put both orders in at the same time. I don’t think I’ll ever get to eat there again. It's sad to me, even though I can remember it like a waking dream.
If I ever make it back to Vegas I’ll probably avoid whatever the place is now. Super Mex exists in my mind like a reality, and that would kill it.

That’s nostalgia for you.